Salvador Dali said "to look is to invent" (he said it in Spanish though). Anyway, I agree, but not only in an artistic way. You have to believe. You have to "look" at your hopes, your dreams, and then find realistic ways to "invent" or make them come true. But you have to "look", or believe, first. If you don't do that you're done from the start. Nothing worth while comes cheap or easy. It takes dedication and hard work, faith and gumption to stay the course. One must keep looking and therefore inventing. Nobody is going to give you anything, your cards will never fall right into place. You've got to make it happen, you and nobody else. The road is often long and rocky but if you keep on looking and inventing you'll see light at the end of the tunnel. You will invent your own future, your own happiness. At least that's what I think. Sure, it may not work out exactly as you hoped but in the end you'll at least be satisfied with the fact that you tried. And who knows, hope springs eternal. In the end you may die happy for looking and inventing, and living life as you dreamed. Thanks Sal. You were a genius. There's nothing surreal about wanting to be happy. Take care. Later, Butch